muted

last transmission from new york

well, the time has come. in a matter of hours, i leave new york. it's weird to think that i started this blog in massachusetts and that future posts will be made from there. wait, why is that weird? i don't know. maybe i'm just weird.

anyway, i need to say that i already don't regret having given new york a try. i shared some amazing moments with some amazing people here. and i laughed...A LOT.

i need to thank kim for making this transition as easy as possible for me. thanks, kim! like magic, these last few months were some of the best we ever spent together. i think that speaks volumes about the kind of friends we will remain in the future.

i also want to thank everyone else who helped me through these last few months. i had some of my lowest moments but you guys pulled me through. thank you martha, drew, jennifer, mark, emily, adam, jose, gina, and erica.

my life is definitely going to be weird for a while. i'm already wondering if deciding to take on a move and a new job at the same time was a mistake but i guess i'll know the answer to that soon enough.

my new cellphone # is 781-985-1721.

until next time...

hasta

dwindling...

i have to admit that i've spent some really great days down here recently. i think it's important for me to leave on as good a note as possible so i'm very grateful for these days.

however, these awesome days also remind me exactly what i'm leaving behind.

although being mad when the shit hit the fan wasn't much fun, the anger made the idea of leaving here so much more enticing. i HAD to leave - there was just no other option. now that i've made peace with what's happened, there's a part of me that wishes i could have done so sooner so that maybe i wouldn't have felt the need to runrunrun.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that within days i will be walking away from the only life i've known for the last 3 to 6 years and it scares the hell out of me and makes me pretty damn sad.

this is by far the worst writing i've ever posted. sorry about that. brain=mush.

ipsos: 01/17/2006 - 07/18/2007
dr. a: 03/19/2007 - 07/18/2007

"i looooooooove the mets!!!!!!"

"adriaaaaaaaaaaaan!!!!!!"

i'm excited to meet rocky, the new family dog.

13

today is my last ipsos friday and it feels quite strange. although this job has started to suck lately, it's definitely been the best job i've had since graduating from umass some 8+ years ago (yikes!!!). without a freakin' doubt, yo. one thing that has remained awesome throughout my time here is the people. i've met some amazing people who i'll truly miss.

* * *

i'm loving the new interpol album. the first song is the perfect album opener. i'm thinking i really need to see them live. they're playing in boston at BU on 9/12. it's pretty strange to be looking at massachusetts concert dates again.

* * *

excerpt from an IM conversation with yoko cucumber which just took place:

[13:27] Meo720: i just fell asleep for 2 hours!
[13:27] sravesi0312: nice
[13:27] Meo720: i guess
[13:27] Meo720: what a lazy limp
[13:27] Meo720: lump
[13:27] sravesi0312: what a lumplimp
[13:28] Meo720: need to get some work done...limplump in my own hands
[13:28] sravesi0312: nice fiona
[13:29] Meo720: thanks yo
[13:29] Meo720: way to get the reference...love that
[13:29] sravesi0312: it's all i'm good for, yo!
[13:30] Meo720: nah
[13:30] Meo720: good for everything
[13:30] sravesi0312: nah, i've been thinking
[13:30] Meo720: about what?
[13:30] sravesi0312: me
[13:30] sravesi0312: and what i have to offer
[13:31] sravesi0312: guess what i came up with?
[13:32] Meo720: this list had better be long!
[13:32] sravesi0312: ready?
[13:32] sravesi0312: useless music knowledge
[13:32] sravesi0312: useless movie knowledge
[13:32] sravesi0312: useless math knowledge
[13:32] sravesi0312: a laugh or two
[13:32] sravesi0312: and a sympathetic ear
[13:32] sravesi0312: that's me!
[13:33] sravesi0312: i'm surprised kim lasted 5+ years!!!!
[13:33] Meo720: ok hold up
[13:33] Meo720: that is about all me...
[13:33] Meo720: except the math part
[13:34] Meo720: and believe me...your worth cannot be measured
[13:34] Meo720: the scales don't go that high
[13:34] sravesi0312: you're too kind
[13:34] sravesi0312: but i really feel like i will never have a successful relationship because i wear on the other person after a while
[13:35] sravesi0312: sometimes quicker than others
[13:35] Meo720: trial runs steve
[13:35] Meo720: you just haven't met the permanent one yet
[13:35] Meo720: seriously
[13:35] Meo720: you haven't
[13:35] sravesi0312: i appreciate that. i do. and we don't have to keep this up. i just feel like i'm not relationship material
[13:36] sravesi0312: i thought kim would want me forever but she got tired of being around a downer and who can blame her?
[13:36] Meo720: u haven't found the right person to be in a long term relationship with
[13:36] sravesi0312: i mean, if you look at the full court press she put on me for years and then look at how we ended, i'm not sure how you DON'T come to the same conclusion
[[13:38] sravesi0312: i'm a loser really. a baby. i'm too sensitive
[13:38] Meo720: most girls would kill for that
[13:38] sravesi0312: a good friend, a bad boyfriend
[13:38] sravesi0312: nah, it gets old after a while
[13:38] Meo720: nah
[13:38] Meo720: it doesnt
[13:38] Meo720: trust me
[13:38] sravesi0312: girls wanna be girls sometimes
13:38] sravesi0312: they don't always wanna wear the pants
[13:39] Meo720: behind the facade...tom is a really sensitive guy
[13:39]sravesi0312: BUT
[13:39] sravesi0312: he can fix a bathroom
[13:39] sravesi0312: or change a tire
[13:39] sravesi0312: or make dinner
[13:39] Meo720: so what
[13:39] sravesi0312: he has the manly elements ladies need
[13:39] sravesi0312: i don't
[13:39] Meo720: he didn't know how to do those things until he tried them
[13:39] sravesi0312: which is why i wish i was gay
[13:39] Meo720: i could do all those things, I just choose not to
[13:39] Meo720: why?
[13:39] sravesi0312: then i could be the femaleish one in the relationship
[13:40] sravesi0312: with no worries
[13:40] sravesi0312: oh well
[13:40] Meo720: i know a lot of gay guys who can do things
[13:40] Meo720: hey...you said it this AM, meet the man/woman of your dreams...it could happen....:-*\
[13:41] Meo720: think about this....
[13:41] Meo720: life's like a movie, write your own ending, keep believing, keep pretending, we set off just what we meant to do....
[13:42] Meo720: thanks to the lovers, the dreamers, and u
[13:42] Meo720: that about sums it up
[13:42] sravesi0312: thanks, yo
[13:42] Meo720: u have no idea what life has instore for you now
[13:42] Meo720: you don't
[13:42] Meo720: who knows
[13:42] sravesi0312: i'm getting old
[13:42] Meo720: it could all happen 8/6
[13:42] sravesi0312: i guess
[13:42] sravesi0312: maaaaaah!

notes

for the first time in forever, i've updated the section to the right that shows what i'm listening to nowadays.

if you can't figure out the album from its tiny thumbnail, mousing over the cover reveals the artist and name.

i know you just creamed yourselves.

[i wish i had a radio show, yo.]

rides

"what are you doing?"

"taking pictures."

"of what?"

"uhh, the rides."

"do you have friends or family here?"

"no."

"then why are you taking pictures?"

"i got a new camera."

"oh. you're not taking pictures of children or anything like that, are you?"

"no. do you want to see them?"

"that's ok."

it didn't occur to me until then that maybe it did seem a little weird that i was at the nassau coliseum fair by myself, not riding any rides and taking pictures.

oh well.

life since march

hello, month five.