muted

sample sadness

i wonder what it means that over the last two days i've listened to mazzy star and fiona apple while in my car. maybe it means that the dominant feeling right now for me is sadness. or maybe it just means that i really am gay.

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because i have an amazon.com visa card, i got a $25 amazon.com gift certificate in the mail this week (a nice, timely surprise). today, i ordered three dvd's. the total came to $31 which means i got these three dvd's for $6 when all was said and done. i've never seen any of these movies. well, i did see part of the first one...in amsterdam...with dutch subtitles.

1. amores perros

2. y tu mama tambien

3. hostel (unrated director's cut - woohoo!!)

nice.

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annie, a coworker of mine since i started here 17 months ago, is leaving today. i'm definitely bummed about that. she was arguably the most valuable member of our 6 person team as she worked her ass off and wouldn't back down from anyone who gave her or the team any shit. she also fit right in with 5 guys who have pretty wacky senses of humor. i'll miss hearing her cackle from the other side of my cube. i'll miss her saying "chicken and beef" or "yo!" whenever she passed me. i'll never forget a few months into my tenure when she told me "you're too funny! i wish you were my brother!" (<---- i get that brother thing a lot ;)

today she said "i'm going to miss you the most, steve." tears.

i wish her the best of luck. her new company has no idea how lucky they are to be getting her.

[pictured (l-r): me, rich, annie, patrick]

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i went to best buy at lunch today for some "retail therapy" (to borrow a phrase i first saw on little black dot). i picked up three more movies that i've yet to see.

4. black hawk down

5. 21 grams

6. little children

as i drove back to work, i realized that all three of these movies are probably pretty depressing. exCITING!